Catch A Falling Starrr. . . ♥

2009-11-17T18:41:00.000-08:00

Je vous adore,
her lover inscribes in the sand.
The young girl,
dazed.
I adore you,
he speaks softly into her ear.
As they catch the last glimpse of sky light,
a moment of pure bliss,
they kiss.

Entertwined on the oceanfront,
salty ocean water crashing upon their bodies.
Aphotic clouds dominate the sky,
masking the harsh moonlight.
Darkness consumes them.

-Boy turned mannequin

2009-03-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

I caress his perfect cheeks,
twirl his fake golden hair around my finger,
hold his cold plastic hand,
kiss his painted lips.
There's no feeling.
He's not there.
I crushed the passion,
the love.
Ruined.

a p a t h y

2009-03-07T16:53:00.000-08:00

Im so over dosed on apathy,
everything seems pointless now,
without that spark inside of me,
the thing keeping me going,
the reason i was able to wake up each morning.

Wanna judge me?! . . .

2008-12-01T20:21:00.000-08:00

NeverShoutNever!

2008-11-01T15:50:00.000-07:00

Christofer Drew! I love this boy with a burning passion. He's oh so ah-mazingly talented. The music he writes and sings can always put a smile on mi face. =] I can't wait to meet him. And one day im going to marry him. He is perfect in every way. ♥ I ℓهvع himm.

HeLovesMe? HeLovesMeNot?

2008-10-26T22:49:00.000-07:00

Whats the truth?
Im tired of picking flowers.
He loves me.
He loves me not.
He loves me.
He loves me not.
Tell me the truth for once.
I need to know.
I can't stop searcing for the answer. . .

They say he loves me but why should i trust these flowers?
They have lied to me before.
How do i know it's not the same as last time?
Prove your self to me.
Then maybe you can have my trust.
Maybe.

If you do anything to hurt me again. . .
EVER again.
Im done trying.
Done.
Done.
Done.
Done.
Done.
If anything happens. . . the flowers lose my trust.
And there will never again be a "me and you"

Ive made mistakes

2008-09-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

The way i...

2008-05-31T17:25:00.000-07:00

The way I blush when I think of you,
The way I smile when I remember your words,
The way I almost wanna pass out when someone mentions you,
The way I wanna go to bed early,Just so I can dream of you,
The way I wanna hold your hand,
The way I wish I shared every class with you,
The way my heart beats faster,
And the way I feel when I imagine you with me,
I'm just like every other girl,
Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else
And I'm just like every story,Hoping for a love-filled ending...

Sealed with a kiss...

2008-05-28T19:35:00.000-07:00

How could I still want you there?
Want you to tell me not to be scared when I hear the thunder...
Hold me close when im cold...
Dance with me on the slow songs...
Laugh at me when I do something stupid...
Smile at me the way you did...
Let me drag you around when we hold hands...

How could I still want that?

Maybe then...

2008-05-28T18:03:00.000-07:00

In our society being pretty and popular is EVERYTHING, it's so stupid.

I don't understand why we can't treat everyone equally. People like Martin Luther King Jr. stood up for equal treatment, so why can't we? Our generation is ruled my money, looks, and popularity. If you don't have any of that your out casted by your peers. It makes absolutely no since. Those people who get treated like crap, will probably grow up feeling like no one cares about them. Tell me, how would you like it? Feeling like your a nobody. I see these kids everyday and I think "What if that was me?"... "What if people treated ME like that?"...

Why do you think our generation is like this? Is it the way were influenced by the media? I think so. Take away the celebrities like Paris Hilton and Miley Cyrus the ones that make it seem like if your not like them there's something wrong with you. Take away all the magazines and models. The TV shows, movies, commercials, and the designer clothes. Even take away the Internet. Then. Then and only then picture our world. Imagine how different it would be. Maybe then the things people all through our history stood up for would count for something. Maybe then equal treatment in our society would seem more possiable.

What Melieka said to mehhhh.

2008-05-27T18:24:00.000-07:00

"Its still warm."

"Are you blogging?"

"What are you blogging bout about?"

"Me?"

"Cookie dough?"

"Joe?"

"And walk it out...."

"Yummy!"

"This is so good."

"Cat dog na na na naaa catdog!"

"Did you know batman is like a bat?"

"I never really realized that..."

"Well i think i did but a long time ago."

"Can i see it now?"

Theres no way im better off with out him...

2008-05-26T20:33:00.000-07:00

Some things i just dont understand...
You love someone and you think they love you too but they end up just breaking your heart. Why is it that people say they love you if they really don't? I don't really understand that... Why can't they just tell you they dont like you and break your heart then instead of making you think you have a chance of them loving you, Then breaking your heart. I think theres only one person who can answer that. And I know that he never will.

I love him and I never stopped loving him, no matter how many times he made me cry or broke my heart I ALWAYS loved him.
I can't even explain how much I love him. It hurts me to know that he hates me and will never love me again. I just want to go back to 7th grade again. I miss the way he used to be. He's one of the best things that ever happened to me. Everyone says im better off without him but I dont really know, it seems like things are worse...

Honest to blog....

2008-05-26T20:05:00.001-07:00

So... i have a blog, don't read it unless i know youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu =]

So im not your average teenage girl.
Im nothing too special, but believe me im not average.
Dont try to label me i wont fit into any of your stereotypes.
You labeling me is just a challenge to prove you wrong.
I hate being told what to do.
Yeah ok so im immature.
Dont tell me to "grow up".
You need to stop being a stuck up prick and have some fun.
I dont care what anyone thinks about me.
Its really hard for me to trust people.
Ive learned the hard way for alot of things.
But when you do have my trust, ill trust you forever.
If you tell me something, mean it.
If your going to talk behind my back
G O D R I N K N A I L P O L I S H.